Freedom has become more and more of an issue again in our current world. May it be physical or mental liberty. I decided to share short excerpts from my book I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not!
On four consecutive Mondays, I will share an excerpt from each of the four parts of the book:
Enjoy!
Read more ›Freedom has become more and more of an issue again in our current world. May it be physical or mental liberty. I decided to share short excerpts from my book I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not!
On four consecutive Mondays, I will share an excerpt from each of the four parts of the book:
Enjoy!
“Realize your essence and you will witness the end without ending.” Lao-tzu
The unbelievable discovery of our own forgotten Self happens in most cases through a particular situation or a constellation of certain circumstances. These circumstances are so perfectly aligned with each other that we cannot escape the confrontation with the next step of our development. These circumstances usually lead us into the deepest depths of our being. We feel that everything breaks down and that all our dreams run through our fingers like sand. Sometimes we think that we lose everything we have lived for. Often we really have to give up something or make a painful experience that forces us to open an inner door we had turned away from over and over again because now we must go through it. By going through it and listening to ourselves and letting ourselves sink down to the bottom of our inner ocean, the moment arrives when we start to understand. All this often happens within a short period of time. The situation is becoming particularly acute from all sides, and apparently, a radical change is about to come. Then a straw breaks the camel’s back. It feels like a gigantic explosion inside of us, blasting everything away that was compressed in us. It is like the tension between two tectonic plates discharging through an earthquake. All the accumulated, forbidden emotions and frustrations are like a helter-skelter trying to get outside.
Read more ›Freedom has become more and more of an issue again in our current world. May it be physical or mental liberty. I decided to share short excerpts from my book I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not!
On four consecutive Mondays, I will share an excerpt from each of the four parts of the book:
Enjoy!
Read more ›Freedom has become more and more of an issue again in our current world. May it be physical or mental liberty. I decided to share short excerpts from my book I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not!
On four consecutive Mondays, I will share an excerpt from each of the four parts of the book:
Enjoy!
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When I had my blogging break after Christmas, I used the time too for going through old posts and “renovate” them. I came across this one I posted in 2016. When I went through it, I got that feeling that it needs to be shared again. I hope the person(s) it is meant for will find some inspiration:
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All of you, who have been following me for a while, know that this blog is not about me, but about the person who visits it. The origin of this blog is my book “I’m Free”. That was even the starting point of my social media presence in general. So my breakthrough experience wrapped in a book led me here. You can read about it here if you like and on my about page. I’m happy to have this blog as a platform to spread inspiration and hopefully some awareness as much as I can. Visitors to my blog are not interested in what I did or did not have for breakfast or how often my tortoise burps. Neither do I feel the need to know every small detail about other people’s private lives. Social media is flooded with this kind of stuff already anyway. So, I won’t ever bother you with that kind of information – promised! Still, I thought it was time to share a little bit about my life aside from blogging.
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A week ago, I posted a Review Request For “I’m Free” asked those of you who had read my book, to leave a review on Amazon. A big thank you to all of you who have followed my request. You are just great!
For those who haven’t had time yet, please click on the image above and you will be taken to my book page on amazon.com. I’d appreciate it very much. Every review counts!
In Love and Light
Anyone who visits the home page of my blog sees the cover above. I published this book almost eight years ago. A sequel has already been written, but only in German, and still needs to be translated. Hopefully, this year my sixth book, “Thoughts of Healing”, will finally be published.
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… by the AuthorVoices. I feel absolutely honored to be one of their featured authors. Read more ›
So often we don’t start a project because we are afraid of failing. We are afraid of being questioned even before we started or before a result is shown. We are afraid of being criticised about how we do it or even THAT we do it. We are afraid that people are making fun of us because we are doing something they might have never dared to do themselves. Or we are afraid because our project also means showing a part of us which we kept hidden for a long. But there comes a time when all those fears are not strong enough anymore to keep us from going for our dream. They cannot keep us from stepping out of our comfort zone anymore. We are full of excitement and enthusiasm and yes, we try it with all our heart and passion. And then it happens…. the door opens up! Read more ›
Lately, I came across this topic several times and thought it would make sense to repost an article I wrote almost 2 years ago:
Life isn’t about being someone we think we should be only because it sounds good because others want us to be, or in order to fit into a certain image of society. A faked personality only confuses the people around you and yourself over time more and more because the real identity gets lost.
Read more ›So often we don’t start a project because we are afraid of failing. We are afraid of being questioned even before we started or before a result is shown. We are afraid of being criticized about how we do it or even THAT we do it. We are afraid that people are making fun of us because we are doing something they might have never dared to do. Or we are afraid because our project also means showing a part of our inner being, of the real person. But there comes a time when all these fears are not strong enough anymore to keep us from going for our dream. They cannot keep us from stepping out of our comfort zone anymore. We are full of excitement and enthusiasm and yes, we try it with all our heart and passion. And then it happens…. the door opens up!
Here is one example of my life that is one the most remarkable because it was one of the earliest of such experiences.
Many of you know that only 7 – 8 years back I would have never dared to talk in front of people, to share my own thoughts, to stand tall for what I believe in even when no one else believed in it. I would have never dared to say something at all without checking before if there are some who would agree with what I say. Otherwise, I said nothing at all. Then I had my breakthrough 7 years back. I only need to think of that moment and my eyes get watery because I will never forget that feeling of breaking down the walls of my prison.
Here I was, standing in my full light. That light made me see immediately where my path led and I started writing I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not. I did not know nor did I want to think too far ahead if that book would ever be published but deep inside I knew exactly that this was the journey I was on and the destination I headed towards. When I was done with the manuscript, had given it to others for proofreading, and worked over it again, I felt ready to try something that felt simply impossible to me only 2 years before. I dialed the number of a publisher in order to ask if I may send them some excerpts. They accepted…… and I was full of fear!
Was I afraid that they wouldn’t like it? No, I was terrified that they would love it! The light definitely illuminated my path. It showed me all the things that are now coming my way and I felt overwhelmed in both positive and fearful ways. Can I handle this all? I could be taken seriously! But I was not used to it! I might have to speak about all the things I believe in and what I saw as blessings in life for everyone. But was I ready to do so? I have always dreamed about it but….. HELP…. it works out!!! I felt like losing control over the developments.
Thanks to my ego pride (yes, the ego can be very helpful) there was no way back… I had given myself a promise to never ever return to my old prison. And that means that I need to let my light shine in order to see the path… step by step! As you know, they accepted and my blog only exists because of the English version which was published two years after the release of the German book. Meanwhile, I have given several lectures, have written for newspapers, and have even given 3 English live radio interviews. I accept right away because I never want to give my brain the time to block the plans of my soul. I feel where I have to go and I will never stop following that inner feeling. Did get used to my light? No, not at all! It feels as if I discovered it every day anew. It is a bit scary…. but much more wonderful to see that the world stands wide open to me!
Sometimes we go for something and don’t really consider it to work out. We do it in order to grant our soul its peace because then we can say that we tried it. Even bigger is the surprise (or the shock) when it works. And it scares us a bit more because we feel mentally unprepared. Nothing stays the same anymore. But when things are going smoothly then it is the proof that it is your path and your time- whether your mind is believing it or not.
When we are not used to the bright shine of our light we can be shocked and scared by its immense creative power. The light that we are is pure creative energy. When we let our light shine and only then take action we are on our path and that path will always – all life long – lead to new places. Because we are meant to grow. We are meant to evolve. We are meant to LIVE! It is ok, to be irritated by your light because it is the most amazing power and it is even living within you. But never be scared of it. Trust, that it will always illuminate the path your soul chose way before it came into this body in order to fulfill its plan and give your life the sense and meaning you long for. Your soul is nothing else but the peace of the Almighty.
So when you let your light shine, God shines through you.
That is what the world needs so badly.
In Love and Light
When I had my blogging break after Christmas, I used the time too for going through old posts and “renovate” them. I came across this one I posted in 2016. When I went through it, I got that feeling that it needs to be shared again. I hope the person(s) it is meant for will find some inspiration:
Read more ›Hi friends, I wasn’t around today because in the morning I took off to Radolfzell. I was one of the speakers at the so-called Happiness Fair. A friend of mine, who did the setup and cover for my German I’m Free and who helped me with the translation of the English edition, had a booth at that fair. After I had given my lecture I helped her out at the booth when she gave her lecture.
Read more ›Whenever people talk about karma they usually mean something bad, that follows and bothers them. If someone has to suffer from a bad disease, is bad lucky all the time or even “struck by fate” some people explain it with “bad karma”. They see it like a punishment of something caused in a former life and now the person has to face it again and again. Some also talk about “good karma” which means you get rewarded for the good things you did in a former life. Read more ›
Due to my absence I want to share a 2 part series about reincarnation with you which I published last year in November. I hope you like it:
November in Central Europe is the month we remember our deceased loved ones. November 1st therefore is a holiday. According to it the season changes: the nights are getting longer, the trees are mostly losing their last leaves, it is getting colder and we have a lot of fog over here. I thought this would be a fitting time for such a post in order to bring a little light into this season.
Read more ›Actually, I planned to post another article according to a request of a blogger friend for this Monday. I hope you don’t mind that I changed my mind. A lot of things happened during the past few days and it made me spontaneously write this post:
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This is the last part of the success series. In this part I want you to encourage to faithfully follow your dream no matter if you have to face some struggles on the way, no matter if you already know about the whole plan, no matter how long it might take, and no matter whether someone did it before or not.
Follow YOUR dream!
Life is in constant motion even when we are standing still. The circumstances in our lives are moving which means that we are pushed to move. Therefore standing still is impossible. Don’t wait till you are pushed to be somewhere or someone you don’t want to be only because you are not willing to create your own footsteps. Living other people’s dreams has never brought success but frustration, depression, and diseases. It weakens you since it is not your dream and not your potential and therefore nothing you could give yourSelf. And as Wayne Dyer says: You can’t give away what you don’t have! To be pushed in a direction you don’t feel comfortable with shows you mercilessly that it won’t work since it is not your dream and therefore not meant for you to be.
Take the first step, have faith in yourSelf, keep up a happy knowing that your dreams are supposed to come true since they have grown out of you, watch the first signs of unfolding, and take the next step in faith again. Following your dreams shows your gratitude for what you were provided with to go through this life in your own certain way. If you don’t do it, no one does it!
Believe in you!
Believe in your dreams,
Believe your inner voice.
Believe that you always
Will have your own choice.
Believe in your strength,
Believe you’re unique.
Believe that your power
Is enough to succeed.
Just believe in yourself
Only half as I do
And I give you my promise –
It’s all coming true!
– Erika Kind
Summary
Looking back on your own life, what would you say was your biggest success? It was the time when you expanded yourSelf into the outside world.
You will never ever lose your path as long as you believe in yourself, be authentic, love what you do, have an open mind, and follow your dreams steadfastly. Your dreams are part of your life’s purpose. Living your purpose creates your heaven on earth. Never forget the greatest power you always have at hand: the divine energy, that you are, called love! Whatever you do with love in your heart will make everything you do a gift to the world.
Success is only a wonderful symptom that occurs out of your authentic way of living in love – flowing through all of your actions.
In Love and Light!
See the previous chapter Part 4 Don’t doubt but open up your mind!
Love, what you do!
Part 3 of my success series is about the powerful energy of love – See part 2 Authenticity
When am I successful? It is when I am grateful and joyful in doing what feels like an eternal flame burning in my heart. Doing something that is joyful to you and simultaneously brings joy into other people’s lives is the greatest fulfillment and success you can have in life. When you do what you do with love, things work faster and easier. Doing something with love makes you more concentrated and focused, and keeps you at the moment.
Love is the highest and greatest force in the universe. Everything that has been developed, raised, or improved by love has the seed of eternity inside. Whatever was made with the breath of love owns a divine core. Since we are all divine beings love is the basis of our existence. It is the essence of who we really are. We were born out of God’s love and we are what we come from. So when we think, talk, act, and create we should do it from this place of love inside of us. Then we put the spark of love into everything we do, which spreads the energy of love. Everything that contains this divine love is filled and nurtured with the greatest supportive power that is available.
There are often things we don’t like to do or are even scared of. Sometimes we can avoid situations and persons. But sometimes we can’t. If you try to resist something you cannot prevent then your inner tension will only grow and make things worse. Whenever something like that is challenging you to make a conscious decision and say to yourself: I have to face what’s coming up. I decide to change my inner concept and let love flow into this talk/task/event. I will love what I do and I know that I will be given the greatest support. In letting love flow through my thoughts and actions things will always turn out perfect.
The decision to let love flow into your projects transforms the quality of your approach. Fear, anger, and ignorance simply dissolve and are replaced by a peaceful and deep knowing that all is well. A challenge faced with love makes you steadfast and is already an insight into which you grow and which strengthens you. It expands your faith in yourSelf and in the divine power you are connected with. At the moment you open up for love you also open up the channel for the divine flow. Divinity will flow through you and into everything you touch.
Let love be the companion of your thoughts, the inspiration of your creations, and the engine of your daily actions. With love as a carpet you walk on your visions and ideas will manifest faster and more exactly since they are born out of the deepest and purest spirit that you truly are. A project aligned with divine love will always succeed!
Next week part 4 will have the title: Don’t doubt but open up your mind!
In Love and Light
I apologize for the short notice of the disappearance. There was some turmoil in my private life from one moment to another. The old story about letting go. I will tell you about my experience after A Big Thank You to all of you. I am so moved by how much you all cared. I had never ever expected that. Although I closed the comment section on my last post on Monday many of my wonderful friends sensed something and simply commented in the loveliest ways on a different post. Colleen, Ritu, Zee, and Michelle even stayed in touch with me via email. One year ago almost nobody knew me and today people say I was missed and they make the effort to get in touch with me in order to show me that I am loved… that was overwhelming! I am profoundly touched by so much love, compassion, and care. I don’t know how to thank you. I love you all from the deepest bottom of my heart! And believe me, I missed you all badly! My community rocks!!!
Read more ›This post was inspired by a post of a friend I read last week. It was about the problem of accepting compliments. I had a lot of problems accepting compliments until I was 39. I was convinced I wasn’t worth nice words. Yes, everybody is worth nice words… but not me.
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This is a post that I originally posted on June 2, 2014. I had a handful of followers at that time. I thought it would make sense to bring those posts up for all my wonderful friends in my meanwhile so big community. I hope you like it:
At times everybody is confronted with burdening memories of the past. I am very sure that there is no exception. It is not always a clear memory, but sometimes a behavior we cannot get rid of but which is in our way. Often we know that these attitudes, sadness, anger, feelings of guilt, frustrations, and sometimes helplessness originates in the past.
Read more ›I just received the link to my live radio interview from last week Tuesday at Kimberly Rinaldi’s Lessons in Joyful Living.
Please don’t get impatient the program needs a moment for loading. The interview has 4 sections of 13 minutes interview and 2 minutes advertisements each. You don’t need to listen to the whole show all at once. Just pause and continue later.
The first 9 minutes of the first section are occupied by Kimberly. But then I am coming into the picture… no… radio … anyway, you hear me after about 9 – 10 minutes.
I would love to get some feedbacks. I don’t need to say how excited and enthusiastic I was… you will hear it… lol. Enjoy!
In Love and Light!
Last week I had an amazing live interview with Kimberly Rinaldy at Lessons in Joyful Living. We were talking about my book, my motivation to start it, my challenges, how I reached my breakthrough, and much more. Since there is so much more to say, Kimberly even invited me for another interview. I will keep you posted on the date.
We touched on one topic that is most important to me. Because it is one with which many of us are fighting during our lifetimes. I too did, because I thought I wasn’t meant for a purposeful life. I simply misunderstood that I am always fulfilling my purpose. But only when I rediscovered my value I started going for my dreams consciously. It was the time when I promised myself: “I will never ever look back and say that I had the chance, but didn’t take it because I was scared. And now it is too late.” Never!
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I just came back from my weekend in Germany. It was fantastic: Spring all over. I could stay at my teacher’s house and his lovely wife’s for the night. I was spoiled all over!!! Chris Gaydon did not only teach me Aromatherapy, Spiritual Healing, and Medial Training, but he also helped translate my book. He is English and I was so blessed with his help. He’s always been of great support. He is not only my teacher but has become a mentor over the years who is responsible a lot for my development. He invited me to do this lecture together with him in order to promote our seminars which we do together since last year.
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I will have a live radio interview with Kimberly Rinaldi
on Tuesday, March 3rd at 10 AM PST.
It would be fantastic if you shared these live moments with me. Since it is a live stream you can even call in and ask me questions. That way we could talk to each other after we read so much from another.
You can listen to the show: http://lijlnetwork.com/shows/lessonsinjoyfulliving
You can call in: 866-404-6519 or go to http://www.LIJLradio.com/chat
Not able to listen LIVE? You can listen on iTunes ANYTIME http://bit.ly/LIJLiTunes
Hope to meet you, my friends!
In Love and Light!
I so often think back on how things have come together in order to unfold the way I find them in my life today. It is an exciting journey of exploring. It helps to understand the universal laws, gives lots of profound insights, and therefore strengthens my faith.
My most impressive string of unfolding in order to come to new unfolding is the story of how I came to write my book I’m Free and so much that followed. It is a huge story. When you read my book then you find lots of examples in it from my own life of how to break free. I am currently writing a new book which is about miracles. The story I want to tell you today is mentioned in that book and it is still a miracle to me. But at the same time, it is only a part of a far bigger miracle that still seems to unfold.
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I had the pleasure to be interviewed by Robert Ahanes, author of “Goddess in the Silence”! A big thank you to Robert for all of his effort. Also check out his website http://www.robertahanes.com/erika-kind.html
November in Central Europe is the month we remember our deceased loved ones. November 1st, therefore, is a holiday. According to it the season changes: the nights are getting longer, the trees are mostly losing their last leaves, it is getting colder and we have a lot of fog over here. I thought this would be a fitting time for such a post in order to bring a little light into this season.
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My dear friends. I am still in Pasadena and can’t wait to share this wonderful weekend with you after the completion of my book signing.
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I am so excited! Today is the day and I am gonna leave for Pasadena! Two years ago I went to the I CAN DO IT! event as a visitor to join Wayne Dyer’s lecture. This time I not only can meet all the amazing authors but most of all be an official and promoted part of the event. A small step compared to what others already made but a huge one for me!
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During the marketing campaign for my book, I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You are not I was invited to write a guest blog on http://www.spiritandplace.wordpress.com. Yesterday my article has been published. I would love you to take a look and read the article My Journey and of course, check out the blog!
In Love and Light!
What an amazing weekend lies behind me! Three days of being around the beautiful people of my publisher, talking to people at the booth, signing books, and holding two lectures about what I love most: the beauty, power, and love we carry inside!
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I just stumbled again over these beautiful words. Charles Chaplin delivered this speech on his 70th birthday. Probably you all know it already. But every time I read it, it moves me! It goes so deep and leaves me with wet eyes all the time. So much wisdom and experience are lying in these words, reminding us that we can lift the curtain of illusion in order to find the beauty, love, and all the answers we have been looking for.
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Actually I wanted to write a post about something totally different. But today while I was doing my household (I always get the best ideas during vacuuming, cleaning the bathrooms, or mowing the lawn – my head must be pretty empty then…), I started thinking about this subject.
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Freedom means feeling good no matter whether others like it or not! – Erika Kind I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not! Take a look at the preview when clicking on the link above!
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I am always amazed when I look at an invention we use every day without even thinking about it. It is normal; it has been always there – for us! But at times I stop and think, what was before! What was before the telephone (or the telegraph) was invented? And I am not talking about cell phones but the real beginning. What was before we had electricity? And how did someone get the idea of inventing it? What happened to make someone think of inventing electric light? How did someone get the idea of taking photos? I mean how do you get the idea of something no one knows or has seen or heard of before?
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During my workout, I heard the song Naughty Boy – Lalala. It reminded me of a chapter of my book The Principle of Duality – The Duality within different Characteristics. In this chapter, I write amongst others about ignorance and other characteristics which have a negative touch. Hearing that word most people might think of negative intolerant behavior. Actually, it simply is a characteristic that too often appears in a negative way.
Read more ›… but how I react is mine! – Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
I have to admit that I was raised very strictly and I was supposed to fulfill certain expectations. Also, I was bullied when I was 9 until the age of 11. I did not understand why others were treating me that way and why who I am was not sufficient. Behind my wall, I felt secure … but also lonely!
Read more ›In addition to my blog post from Monday I want to share a very fitting poem of my collection with you.
The following poem is part of my poem book Enjoy Life! The content is kind of my story – from darkness to light, from hiding to breaking free – from fear to conquering life! This poem also contains the basic lyrics of my song I would do it again!, which I performed at my book presentation of the German version of I’m Free.
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From early childhood on we are told what is right or wrong. We are punished or rewarded for our behavior. We observe how other people declare what they like or don’t like, what they think is beautiful or ugly, what they think is good or bad. As a little child we already learn to divide things in categories and we learn to judge. We learn it in a way that over the years we are convinced that everything has to be categorized and so we automatically judge whatever we see, hear and experience.
Read more ›This is the last part of the success series. In this part I want you to encourage to faithfully follow your dream no matter if you have to face some struggles on the way, no matter if you already know how the whole plan, no matter how long it might take, and no matter whether someone did it before or not.
Read more ›In July my husband, my two older kids, and I spent 2 weeks in the United States. We spent time in New York City, went to Alex Grey’s Chapel of Sacred Mirrors, took a few days for visiting our friends and former home in the Buffalo area, and took the chance to see Boston again after 15 years.
We had a great time and I want to share it through some pics with you! I start with our trip to Manhattan where our vacation began!
The most touching moment for me was visiting Ground Zero. We went to that place 15 years ago, when my son was 3 months old. We took pictures with him within the WTC. 2 years later it came to the catastrophe. Seeing the memorial made me sad but also spreads hope and power that every breakdown leads to a new rise – when we only stick together and change our point of view! Let’s take every crisis as a chance of evolution!
Ground Zero today!
9/11 Memorial – Platform of the former North Tower. The names of the victims are engraved around both platforms.
Platform of the former South Tower!
The new one: One World Trade Center (as they call it)
It is even taller than the former Twin Towers. Amazing architecture!
I truly hope, that mankind will learn soon, that you can only achieve something when you use the weapons which correspond to the result. War can never bring peace but activates hatred and more fighting! We have to send out peace in order to calm everything down. We have to be tolerant in order to get respect. We have to be empathetic in order to be understood and accepted the way everybody is. We can make this world to our heaven. We’d only have to behave like it!
In Love and Light!
Love, what you do!
Part 3 of my success-series is about the powerful energy of love – See part 2 Authenticity
When am I successful? It is when I am grateful and joyful in doing what feels like an eternal flame burning in your heart. In doing something that is joyful to you and simultaneously brings joy into other people’s lives is the greatest fulfillment and success you can have in life. When you do what you do with love, things work faster and easier. Doing something with love makes you more concentrated and focused, and keeps you in the moment.
Read more ›I found out that there are lots of German speaking bloggers on WordPress. Therefore I wanted to introduce you to my German book I’m Free. If you like my posts, you will love I’m Free – no matter which version!
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One of my chapters in my book “I’m Free” is about Gratitude. I found out what an enormous powerful, transforming effect gratitude has. It is one of the easiest basics to change your life into a direction of love, happiness, contentment and success.
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We are unique beings, with a unique history, unique skills and abilities, unique in liking or disliking things, unique in the subjects, targets, and several destinations we have chosen for this lifetime – we are a sum of unique aspects which make us so individual. This individuality is the cause of our worldview. It is responsible for what we think of life, our surroundings, the people around us, and of course of ourselves. Whatever we heard, experienced, touched, or encountered made us the person we are today.
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All the people who know me and my books, know that I say: Follow your heart, listen to your inner voice, and live your dream! I just remembered an episode in my life which made me think about the phrases above. I still believe in them and I still live them, but they are holding a risk when you lose contact with yourSelf. If you start following your dreams only because you think: “I bring to an end what I began” then you could make yourSelf a slave of your vision.
When I was a teenager I saw myself sitting in a TV show being interviewed by someone. I also wanted to be a famous pop singer. Also when I was 14 years of age I felt a big empathy I wanted to help others to activate their happiness and potential. In my mid-thirties, when my youngest child was 2 years old, I felt a flame glowing, saying: The time has come to follow a new purpose. I knew it wasn’t a new purpose but something that by then had already spread its roots. But what was there lying inside of me? Somehow I was afraid to look too deep into it. Because when I found out, I might have to do things I never did before. And that scared me. I still was full of self-doubt and the opinion of others about my person had more weight than what I felt about myself. Deep down I knew who I am. But that did not correspond with the comments of other important people in my life. Since I did not dare to stand behind myself and my opinion that was totally confusing. I was afraid, that if I followed my inner call which started to get louder, I might get criticized or even laughed at.
The flame grew bigger and I started to take a little first step. I did research and found lots of interesting education like Homoeopathy, Kinesiology, Aromatherapy, Metamorphose, Reincarnationtherapy, and lots more. So where to start…? I also had to keep in mind that I still have a family of five to take care of (at that time my kids were 2, 5, and 9) a house, and a big garden. Some educations were very expensive and took several years of intense work. That was too much! I was overwhelmed.
Was I only too scared of doing something new or was it simply not time yet for a big project? I was so confused: on one hand, I felt a new task waiting for me, combined with my pride of wanting to show others my flexibility and abilities, and on the other hand the fear and also the stress I felt crawling up my chest and taking my breath.
Although at that moment I did not know anything about any spiritual laws, I stopped and got still for a moment. In a natural reflex, I asked mySelf: What shall I do, what feels good to me? All of a sudden I fell in a state of total inner peace and I knew that I wouldn’t take this new path now. I realized that again I was about to do something for the approval of my surrounding. Yes, I had this dream, this yearning but I didn’t feel ready at all to go for it with all its consequences. First of all, I wanted to be a mother and take the time for my kids, make a nest for my family and care for them. I did not want them to be with babysitters or me to be too busy to be with them. I truly knew that this time it wasn’t an escape but a knowing that at the moment it is not yet my purpose to go big. When I realized that I made a decision for mySelf and for my surrounding I felt so strong, so liberated and so clear about myself.
But nevertheless, I did start … in a different way. Since I already had a name as a singer, I started to force that which was in perfect harmony with my husband’s schedule. Within the following 2 to 3 years I joined some weekend seminars, made the 1st and 2nd grade of Reiki, and became a Spiritual Healer. I went to lectures and read tons of books about self-development and spirituality.
Today, another 6 years later, I have a practice for Aromatherapy and Self-development, wrote 4 books, work on my first CD, speak in front of audiences, and had interviews on radios and on television. I am realizing my teenage visions! Without knowing I was listening to my soul. I did not question if I should follow my dream (as I used to), but which way I shall do it. I did it my way, according to the way it fits into my life and with the speed I wanted.
It was important to always check back with my soul, which step to take and how fast I shall move on. The journey I had to go through first was the important part to lose my fear and my self-doubt. It was important to collect information, experience, and knowledge. All the little steps prepared me to fill my backpack with all the tools I needed.
It is not (always) about the destination but first and foremost about the path you choose to walk towards a destination. And it is important to walk it your way, no matter how many u-turns or stops you make. It all is part of your personal journey to your personal evolution. Your life is your creation. What techniques do you use and how much time do you need or want is exactly matching with who you are. No one but you can judge it.
Yes, follow your heart, listen to your inner voice, and live your dream! But always in alignment with yourSelf! I promise: This way you will succeed in perfection!
In Love and Light
I just finished the interview and it was awesome! Thank you, Loretta, for this wonderful talk!
Here is the link to listen to the interview on the Loretta McNary Live show.
I am sure that is a question each one of us is asking at times. Perhaps every day. Sometimes we are questioning if our job or what we are used to to for years is part of our purpose since it doesn’t feel what we think a purpose is supposed to feel: fulfilling, joyful, successful!
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It was a beautiful day in September 2009 when I sat in this little cove in Laguna Beach. I sat there watching the waves come and go and listened to their calming sound that let me drift into a state of meditation. It felt comfort, healing, and lightness. At that time, I was in the middle of a marriage crisis, and at a point, I wanted to get rid of my old life filled with fear, self-doubt, and dependency on the goodwill of the outside world. I was confused; I didn’t know what to change and how to move on. I could not see the path in front of me, but only the one behind me and all the fears I drew into the presence. By that time, I had read many books to find back to my inner power and self-esteem and to find a way to live without fear and get the courage to stand up for myself.
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