It was a beautiful day in September 2009 when I sat in this little cove in Laguna Beach. I sat there watching the waves come and go and listened to their calming sound that let me drift into a state of meditation. It felt comfort, healing, and lightness. At that time, I was in the middle of a marriage crisis, and at a point, I wanted to get rid of my old life filled with fear, self-doubt, and dependency on the goodwill of the outside world. I was confused; I didn’t know what to change and how to move on. I could not see the path in front of me, but only the one behind me and all the fears I drew into the presence. By that time, I had read many books to find back to my inner power and self-esteem and to find a way to live without fear and get the courage to stand up for myself.
A few days before, I joined a workshop with Esther and Jerry Hicks and the next day a lecture with my favorite author Wayne W. Dyer. I sat in the audience, listened to his words, and got embraced by his radiation and peaceful energy. During that time, I thought: I want to do what he does. I want to give what he gives. I want to help in a way he helps others.
On that day in September on the beach, everything seemed to be different. I was peaceful and quiet. Within this calming atmosphere, there was a flame starting to grow inside of me. All of a sudden, my inner conception simply changed. I still did not know where my path would lead. But it didn’t matter anymore whether I knew it or not. The only thing that mattered was, to feel this loving connection to myself, which said: Don’t worry, follow the voice of your soul – this feeling that feels so true inside of you – and everything will turn out right at the end. No matter how rough times may seem, if you think and act following the loving core inside you, it will have the most significant change in life which creates your world new. You are the only person that knows her way. Be patient and trust yourself, and you will always know the next step at just the right time. You don’t need to know more.
A feeling of liberation and deep faith ran through my chest and my whole body. I never felt that alive and clear about myself before. No hiding, no fear, no victim anymore – for the first time in my life, I felt free! I wanted everybody, who was struggling with themselves, to feel this liberation and the knowing that in the end, it is always up to ourselves how we choose to feel. Happiness, Love, and Peace don’t have to be temporary emotions but are conditions you have carried within you to make your life the best. It has always been there!
In Love and Light!