The Fear to Succeed

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So often we don’t start a project because we are afraid of failing. We are afraid of being questioned even before we started or before a result is shown. We are afraid of being criticised about how we do it or even THAT we do it. We are afraid that people are making fun of us because we are doing something they might have never dared to do themselves. Or we are afraid because our project also means showing a part of us which we kept hidden for a long. But there comes a time when all those fears are not strong enough anymore to keep us from going for our dream. They cannot keep us from stepping out of our comfort zone anymore. We are full of excitement and enthusiasm and yes, we try it with all our heart and passion. And then it happens…. the door opens up!

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Many of you know that only a few years back I would have never dared to talk in front of people, to share my own thoughts, to stand tall for what I believe in even when no one else believed in it. I would have never dared to say something at all without checking before if there are at least some who may agree with what I say. Otherwise, I said nothing at all. Then I had my breakthrough 9 years back. I only need to think of that moment and my eyes get watery because I will never forget that feeling of breaking down the highest walls of my prison.

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Here I was, standing in my full light. That light made me see immediately where my path led and I started writing I’m Free – Awareness of Who You Are by Discovering Who You Are Not. I did not know nor did I want to think too far ahead if that book would ever be published. But deep inside I knew exactly that this is my path. I was on and the destination I headed towards. After I was done with the manuscript, had given it to others for proofreading, and worked over it again, I felt ready to try something that felt simply impossible to me only 2 years before. I dialed the number of a publisher in order to ask if I may send them some excerpts. They accepted and I was … full of fear!

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Was I afraid that they wouldn’t like it? That crazy thing about it is: No, not at all! I was terrified that they would love it. The light definitely illuminated my path. It showed me all the things that are now coming my way and I felt overwhelmed in both positive and fearful ways. Can I handle this all? I could be taken serious but I was not used to it. I might have to speak about all the things I believe in and what I saw as blessings in life for everyone. But was I ready to do so? I have always dreamed about it but….. HELP…. it works out!!! I felt like losing control over the developments. I think that what scared the hell out of me was the instant realization that I have to take responsibility for my opinions and words.

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Thanks to my ego pride (yes, the ego can be very helpful) there was no way back… I had given myself a promise to never ever return to my old prison. And that means that I need to let my light shine in order to see the path… step by step! As you know, in the end, they accepted and my blog only exists because of the English version which was published two years after the release of the German book. Meanwhile, I have given several lectures, have written for newspapers and several live interviews on the radio in a language which isn’t even my mother tongue.
Did get used to my light? No, not at all! It feels as if I am discovering it every day anew. The same happened again when I applied for a job next to my self-employment. Had I ever expected that my humble occupation at the reception desk would develop into becoming a member of the management with much more responsibilities and into working in a completely new field within only one year? I am in that position now for a year. There were times when I thought I cannot do this anymore. The pressure of getting into everything, the responsibility, being in charge of things I did not feel ready for… this stressed me totally at times. But I remembered what I wrote above. Today I am still facing things which challenge me but not that much anymore and many things have become a routine. I am proud of myself that I did not give in. And it encourages and confirms me again to take chances and see where they take me.

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Sometimes we go for something and don’t really consider to work it out. We do it in order to grant our soul its peace because then we can say that “at least I tried”. Even bigger is the surprise (or the shock) when it works. And it scares a bit more because we feel mentally unprepared. Nothing stays the same anymore. But when things are going smoothly then it is the proof that it is your path and your time – whether your mind understands or not.

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When we are not used to the brightness of our light we can be shocked and scared by its immense creative power. The light that we are is pure creative energy. When we let our light shine and only then take action we are on our path and that path will always – all life long – lead to new places. Because we are meant to grow. We are meant to evolve. We are meant to LIVE! It is ok, to be irritated by your light because it is the most amazing power and it is even living within you. But never be scared of it. Trust, that it will always illuminate the path your soul chose way before it came into this body in order to fulfill its plan and give your life the sense and meaning you long for. Your soul is nothing else but a piece of the Almighty.

So when you let your light shine, God shines through you.
That is what the world needs so badly. 

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In Love and Light

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I was sitting in class this evening and my instructor pulled me aside. He told me that I seemed concerned, but I shouldn’t be. He went in to say that I have so much untapped potential that I don’t even know where to go with it. Lately people have been seeing this light or feeling this vibe about me that it has starting to come up in conversations no matter where I go.
I’ve been afraid of what the future holds for me, but I’m starting to get over it, Erika. I’m climbing over that wall and jumping. I won’t let fear of success stop me anymore! I love this message just as I love you my friend! ♥️

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Anthony, this is the perfect example. There comes the time in our lives when our inner light seems to break through. The time is simply right even though our mind doesn’t realize it yet (which causes the fear and confusion). It gave me goosebumps when you said that your light seems to be seen and felt more and more. This is amazing. It is scary because it is new but at the same time you feel a powert which you don’t want to miss anymore.
Thank you so much for your kind words. I am very thankful that we met here on WordPress. You know, It was your light which made me follow you, Anthony!

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I am so pleased that overcoming that initial fear led to your creating your blog Erika, or you and I would never have met.. 🙂
And so you should be rightly proud of yourself and your creative abilities.

Life will always be full of challenges, it will often throw us something new to solve. But that is how we navigate this realm, in learning how to adapt, and overcome, and succeed in our daily adventures.

If we constantly remain locked in fear, never venturing out into the unknown. The explorers of this world had to overcome their fear to conquer new heights as they sailed across uncharted oceans, to climbing Mount Everest, to Walking to the Poles, Each event must have held its own fear.
But they, as we do, trusted in something higher.. That Feeling that drove you to write your book.. The feeling of KNOWING that it was something which needed to be achieved..

Thank YOU for shining your Light Erika.
Love and Blessings my friend..
I truly loved reading your post.. ❤

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Yes, Sue, we all are called to look back and realize how much we have come. How many oceans we already saile and how many mountains we already climbed. We are a work in progress which means there will always show up something new which forces or inspires us to evolve.
Yes, I am so thankful that I have written my book and on the longer run came here to meet you and so many wonderful people I would have missed. Then again… it must have meant to be. Overcomin the darkness and letting our light shine is part of our plan. Isn’t it amazing?
Again, thank you so much for your wonderful comment, Sue 💖

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Letting our Light shine is not easy and is downright terrifying at times. OH do I get it! Yet once we let our Light shine nothing or no one can push us back into our dark boxes again. To grow is painful. To want more of who we are is terrifying yet when we actually act upon discovering more, we feel SO powerful! I could write a book about this …. YOU did however and I read it. RELATE! Lately I want to fly, to go, discover new and more both about me and of the world. And, Erika, I’m doing it. Very small change I made today which I KNEW would lead to good yet beforehand I felt fear in my stomach. Despite that fear I did exactly what I intended to do. Empowering ourselves to BE who we ARE is one definitely BIG adventure. Awesome post, dear friend!!! YAYYAYAYAY! 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

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Wow, thank for all you shared here and for your kind words. I couldn’t agree more. Although we see how much happiness and freedom waiths behind the treshole, making that step is the hardest often such a painful thing to do. Unbelievable how much of an effort it can cost. But yes, once the toothpaste is out of the tube it cannot be put back. Cheers to our natural urge for development and happiness 😊😊

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