When I had my blogging break after Christmas, I used the time too for going through old posts and “renovate” them. I came across this one I posted in 2016. When I went through it, I got that feeling that it needs to be shared again. I hope the person(s) it is meant for will find some inspiration:

When we are born our being is so pure and clear. A little child simply is. When I think back I remember it so well that I often did not understand what others wanted from me. I just was. I loved to find out what is around me, getting lost in watching a butterfly or a bee, a flower or just getting lost in daydreams. I couldn’t understand why that was wrong but over time I was taught to be more concentrated on “reality”, not to dream but to get something achieved. And of course, that had to be things that others thought I had to achieve. Over time, I lost the sense of my inner lightness more and more but instead took over a personality I thought I had to have in order to fit into this system and in order to fulfill the high expectations of the people around me.

The voice within spoke to me again and again. It reminded me of the feeling I had and what I actually wanted to have. But I pushed it aside because it was in the way in order to fulfill my daily tasks. Following that voice would have meant breaking out of that all. But I did not consider that I was allowed or even able to change something. I hoped for conditions to change or for people to change in order to be allowed to live the life I want. I was the slave of my surrounding. Waiting for others to change means waiting forever. Because as long as you are fulfilling their expectations all is well for them. You need to change something.

But then there are the explanations why it is not possible: I have a job, I have a family, I have obligations, I have responsibility… Yes, you have! But that is not compulsorily in opposition to what you change. Freedom doesn’t mean not having any responsibility. In fact, it means taking responsibility for your life and not giving the responsibility for your life to other people’s hands. Because as soon as we say: “I cannot, because….” or “I have to, because….” then we shift the responsibility on to that “because”.

But we can change everything. We can! Perhaps we don’t want to or we don’t feel well in doing so, but we basically can! It is about finding ways to change something. Therefore, we need to get this power and confidence in ourselves back. The flame is still there. We only couldn’t see it because we closed the door but the flame has been there all the time.

You may be scared to open that door because you know exactly that getting that power back could mean dramatic changes all over. What we fear more than the gray fog we got stuck in for so long is the brightness and variety of colors we don’t know how to deal with. It is beautiful, something we actually yearn for, that breeze of fresh air but it scares us because it is new and unknown. That is the reason why it is even more important to feel that flame again. Once you feel it, all doubts disappear and you are filled with a power that makes you feel unbreakable, unstoppable, and unlimited. I am sure that you can feel it – maybe even right now. But you also feel it when you are relaxed and get some distance from your daily life. You can feel it when you sit at the ocean, on a mountain, watching a sunset, and your thoughts start to fade away while the flame inside grows higher.

This flame, that inner strong feeling has a creative and healing power. Whatever feeling you radiate has creative power. We are creating constantly through what we radiate. It is not the thoughts that create, it is the feeling. That is why all positive thinking has no effect as long as we don’t feel what we think. However, our thoughts can influence our feelings. A thought long enough thought becomes a belief. A belief often enough practiced and confirmed gets stored in our belief system. Whenever something happens in our life that fits a familiar thought/belief triggers a reflexive feeling. The energy of the feeling we radiate connects with the same energy in the outside world. That is why there needs to happen a conscious change inside in order to provoke constant changes in the outside world, the circumstances, life situations, and relationships, …. Change is a decision!

In order to change something, you need to feel who you want to be. You don’t need to know the whole story or the whole path. Just allow your dreams to surface again and go with them piece by piece, change by change and you will reveal your true self constantly. The more you reveal yourself the more developments will happen, the more motivated you become to stick to your being, the more opportunities you get to see, the more you get encouraged to grab them, the more convinced you become about yourself, and the more and the faster that revealing progresses which again shows more in your life of who you are. The better it gets, the better it gets. Once you made that first step into that colorful world you won’t ever go back anymore.

But you know what? Once you feel that power of yourself pulsing within you, you don’t need to bother about thoughts anymore. Because with every layer you take off of who you are not, you radiate more of who you are, and all that equals that You will connect in the outside world. It is a constant change according to your development that unveils the most beautiful secrets about yourself and life. Again:

The pre-condition for finding the life you want to live is to get to feel who you actually are!
The only person who can take or grant your freedom – are you!

In Love and Light