On Wednesday mornings I always prepare my Monday post. Sometimes I just sit and think: “Hmmm, and now what???” Like at this very moment. Of course, I make notes when I have ideas for posts. But often there is nothing coming up that would align with my notes. So I simply start writing and hope that something will be coming up.

Hope! That’s the crucial word I just reflected on. What is hope? Can’t we interpret hope in many ways?

• Hope can be a driving force to go on, for not giving up, for not losing ground, for staying strong, for believing in an outcome we so wish for, for standing tall.
• But is hope also clinging to something we cannot let go of? Is hope a sign of desperation? Is hope a way of saying: I only want it this and no other way? Is hope a part of faith or actually the opposite?

This all just popped out. I think it can be both. Again it depends on how we look at life! When we believe in a greater context then we might hope for the best outcome for us or others. When we only focus on a tiny aspect of life or even only on a tiny aspect of our lives then it might be that it is not hope but desperation. Then it is actually a lack of faith.

Whatever we might see as the best result doesn’t mean it is. As long as we focus stubbornly on one possible outcome we are denying any other way of development. We won’t see the signs of development in other even much bigger ways. We would think that what we hope for will not come true since the signs show in a different direction than we want the situation to unfold.

My biggest dream has always been to live in the USA. But after my husband’s almost deadly accident when we were 18  I gave up on this dream. Nine years later, already married, and having a cute little daughter we were planning on building a house. The ground was owned and split by my husband’s huge family. Nothing moved on to get everybody at one table discussing and signing the necessary papers that we could purchase that ground. And when it was almost done one of his uncles died and we had to wait for the whole heritage procedure to be done first. This all took months over months… I was angry and frustrated. I so hoped impatiently (how else… lol) that we finally get the signed paper in order to start our project. We already had the plans for the house since all the involved people agreed at least verbally.

During the heritage procedure, something else happened. My husband’s company asked him if he was willing to move to the States for a while to launch a bigger project. When he came home and asked me what I thought about it, I said: “You don’t need to ask me if, just tell me when!!!” I am glad that things did not turn out the way I wished for while focused only on one aspect of my life. If they had, we would have been right in the middle of the construction phase when the question about moving came up. But since we weren’t, it was easy to simply move out of the apartment and head overseas. My biggest dream at that time came true. All the papers were even signed before we left and when we came back we could start!

Everything was in perfect order! It taught me that life has so much more in store for us than we might see at the moment. Never cling to something that seems not to work out at the moment. Don’t give up on it but let it rest for a while. Sooner or later you will get the answer and realize the greater context.

I know it is not easy when we want something so badly. And yes, some aspects might not be meant for us. But try to stay open, try to get some distance to the issue or situation. Stay calm and faithful that everything will unfold in the perfect way and time. Conditions need time to get in order. And even if your biggest wish seems not to unfold there is something in store for you – something bigger. But you can only see that when you stay open-minded. In the end, you will understand.

In Love and Light!