In May, I am entering my 12th blogging year. That fact made me think back to the past years here on WordPress. When I started, I had no idea or imagination of what blogging would be like, so I had no real expectations. My publisher set up the first version of my blog for me to promote my book, “I’m Free.” They taught me the basics of how to post and how to gain followers. I am glad I did not know much in advance because that way, I learned even more for life.

Although I stuck to my blogging purpose, I got followers who wanted other things than only inspiring conversations. Unfortunately, I did not realize it instantly and began to take my blog in other directions, too, which appeared to be interesting for an even wider audience. However, after a while, I noticed this is not what I want to share here and how want to present myself. I acted quickly. I distanced strictly from those blogs and unfollowed, blocked the blogger(s), and deleted the inappropriate posts. It was an unhealthy time for my inner world. But at the same time, it made me leap in my development through conscious distancing. First, I was mad and frustrated. I was also angry at those persons and myself that I did not recognize them earlier. Later, I realized that I learned so much through it. I learned to differentiate between the energies. I learned to trust with my mind backing up my emotions. I learned that numbers don’t matter, but quality does and that constantly being present only keeps me from real life and has no improving influence on my blogging anyway.

But most of all, I learned the important lesson for life that distancing from some toxic individuals has a positive effect on my self-esteem. I recognized although I had distanced myself, I had never been separated – not before and not after. We cannot separate from one another. We are all connected through life’s energy, through the invisible energy we all come from. That brings us together and makes us learn from one another exactly what we need. Later, we may part ways again or the connection forms new. My sensors got sharpened while my arms have never excluded anyone. I would rather get disappointed again and distance myself later than separate from anyone, which is not possible anyway since I will only attract what fits my current attitude. So, I would rather attract trust, love, respect, and compassion.

Through distancing, we realize that separation does not exist, but that everything is connected.
Through our experiences from this connection, we learn where we need to distance ourselves from.

Thank you to those who made me see
who I never want to be.

In Love and Light