Lately a friend asked me if I really was such a fearful person in the past as I mentioned in my books. She said, she can hardly imagine me being scared or feeling misunderstood and isolated.
I totally understand because over decades I successfully hid my true feelings and thoughts, my anxieties and insecurity behind a thick wall of pretended strength and self-esteem. I was almost drowned inside those walls. Today I am happy – not as a random emotion but as a conscious state of living. I am basically in touch with mySelf and trust its voice to show me the path I am supposed to go. But don’t think that I got rid of my fears. Oh no, not at all!
This new way of discovering life for about 6 years is still in development and will always be. Because of the different directions, I have chosen to go my whole life has changed. I encounter people, situations, events, and unfolding in my life which I have no experience. I have to give mySelf into this life in a way I never did before. As a reflex, my old fears and self-doubts occasionally crawl up again. Even when a long-desired dream finally shows signs of realization, I notice my head telling my stomach to cramp. But today there is a big difference I deal with it.
I know exactly that those fears only arise because I am about to open up a new unknown door. It means that I am going to enter a new level in my life and that I might be ready to face it. This scares me in the beginning since there are no former experiences I can lean on. But the only way of personal evolution is to walk a path you have never walked before. No progress is possible as long as you are circling around in the same area. Everything that happens on a new path makes you grow to like never before. Looking back and knowing that you took the path your soul had chosen will give you self-esteem which no one else can give you with good advice. It makes you see your dormant potential and shows that only you are able to know where your path leads.
When I notice doubtful thoughts while following the realization of my dreams I say thank you to my arising fears. They show me that the day has come to expand myself once more into the outside world. I notice my fears but they cannot stop me anymore.
I have come over the doubt about my self-worth, my opinion, or my decisions only because of the (possible) critics of others. I don’t let my life, my joy, and my whole self depend on the approval of others. As soon as I started to listen to, trust, and faithfully follow mySelf, no critics have ever been heard anymore.
In discovering yourSelf, you will find the connection to yourSelf and your life will unfold in a way you would have never imagined in your wildest dreams.
Embrace your fears since they show you what’s next on the bucket list of your incarnation.
In Love and Light