For months, I let me become completely absorbed by my circumstances, my jobs, and what I needed and wanted to get done in the rare time which was left. I learned my lesson. So, I have been making more room for my-Self again. I started working creatively with my hands as I used to. Right now, I am working on my own 100% natural skincare line. As you noticed, I am posting more about essential oils and body care again which will be a part of it. I am experimenting with soaps, body lotion bars, bath bombs, hand lotion bars, researching the net, attending courses. I developed my own label and next on my list is a completely revised website which will be a huge project itself. So, it is still a long way to get there but that doesn’t matter. What do I want to say with this all?
I got back to what my heart wants. That way my Self is expanding again and filling my whole being with joy. I feel like I am creating to bring joy and healing to others. In following this course, my life becomes so much more meaningful again. But what is more important, it leads me on the path where I really belong and where I find the answers which are still missing even though I am not consciously looking for them. When I researched the net for soap recipes I stumbled over a blog here on WordPress and followed. The blog is called Herzwärts. (The blog is written in German but I wanted to share it anyway for those who are able to understand it.) What I did not know was that the woman behind the blog; Nicole, is posting about much more. When she posted about Auswirkungen der Hochsensibilität (Effects of Sensory Processing Sensitivity) it was like a thousand lightbulbs went off! I never considered me fitting into this. I have not even heard about it before. But all of a sudden, everything in my life made sense. Sensory Processing Sensitivity is not a mental illness, it is a state of being with a higher sensibility which recognizes and absorbs more of the energies around you. In general, everything or at least more that happens around such persons is perceived. That can be overwhelming and stressful. Also, it can be confusing since it is not easy to differ whether the bunch of emotions you feel are yours or not. That’s why it is often impossible to even put in words what is going on inside. It is a big relief and liberation to finally have an explanation, because now I understand why others don’t understand me. It is not ignorance or antipathy but we are simply feeling in different dimensions. This post is actually not meant to be about this matter, so if you are interested to learn more about Sensory Processing Sensitivity please read here on Wikipedia:
Anyway, what I actually want to say here is that once you give yourself the allowance to follow your heart you are automatically led where you are supposed to. You find solutions you had not expected. Our inner struggles may be hidden so deeply that we don’t even know they are there although they are still affecting our lives. Sometimes we cannot understand what happens with us and why we are caught in particular emotions or in repeating challenges and struggles. As soon as we dare to follow our inner call we are automatically connecting with our true nature. Only opening that door a little bit, already makes a difference, because we already feel more of the unique energy-field which was only created for us which leads us immediately.
I am concluding this post with a message I received during meditation. I know, it was not only meant for me. So, I am happy to pass it on to those who need it these days:
Each experience opens up new paths.
Each new path leads to new experiences.
So, you need to walk that path.
Fear holds you back, fear blocks your mobility, fear keeps you from continuing your journey.
But fear is only a thought – not a truth
Loneliness is only a thought – not a truth
Dependency is only a thought – not a truth
We are never alone. All of us are independent beings and at the same time always connected with each other.
Your heart is strong. It knows the truth. Let it speak. Let it lead you in order that you can walk your path fearlessly but light-filled towards your experiences. You are never alone.
You are your own solid rock.
All is well.
In Love and Light