The part that undoes me: ‘we stand in our own way without noticing it for the longest time.’ Because once you notice it, really notice, you can never go back to blaming circumstances. And that’s both liberation and a kind of grief, isn’t it? Because if I’ve been standing in my own way, that means all the energy I spent resenting life for what it did to me… I could have been using differently. I could have been corresponding instead of surviving. So thank you for naming this. But also, how do you sit with that realization without turning it into another way to punish yourself? How do you transform ‘I was in my own way’ into ‘Now I choose differently’ without shame? That’s the real work, I think.

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