It has been ‘interesting’ to say the least dear lady. Even where I was at within myself I thought I had a good handle on love but as I’m going through this illness I’m truly being asked to heal me and ‘be’ that love. Now I know this is a very conditional world so that we can indeed find us but to be asked to heal myself was/is very confronting. To believe in yourself enough to begin a process to go beyond ‘conditional’ (which is me believing otherwise and blocking myself), and not go ‘oh, look at me I’m sick’ (which is actually important as we need one side to understand and realise the other side), the journey through it opens something very profound. I’ve been on, off spluttering that maybe I wasn’t doing something right because change wasn’t happening until I realised I was ‘trying’ instead of ‘being’. That place where you ‘feel’ it when you look into a baby’s face, hug that special person in your life or that puppy jumps all over you. We are good at doing it for others but after a lifetime of believing what we are (which isn’t anything like the previous comment), a new way of being needs to be created. In my instance I had done that but had not fully ‘let go’ my hanging onto life, it took laying on a floor at my last breath and meeting God to understand that I was holding onto life in fear still (because of the constant sickness etc), and finally look at the other side of sickness and become well. I have now reduced my sickness level by around 30 percent and the pain level to about 50 percent. When I realised by ‘hanging on’ instead of ‘going on’ it gives such a confidence and understanding in my journey. Oh, there is a side affect…I didn’t think I could smile more than I have but its now spread all over 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋 😂 🤣

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Well said, It is a part of finding our hearts Erika, learning to believe in what we are and discovering a beauty within that has always been there but covered with our fears. It is a process of that love and truth in going past so much 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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