Day 3 #Loveuary❤ – As a parent

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My dear blog sister, Ritu, of But I Smile Anyway has a beautiful challenge going through this Valentine month. Love is my favorite subject and how could I resist to participate as much as possible. If you want to check it out you find more information here!

When I read the title of Ritu’s prompt today the following quote immediately was in my mind: Read more ›

Day 2 – #Loveuary ❤ My Love For My Parents

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My dear blog sister, Ritu, of But I Smile Anyway has a beautiful challenge going through this Valentine month. Love is my favorite subject and how could I resist to participate as much as possible. If you want to check it out you find more information here!

For today’s prompt, I went a little emotional. The relationship with my father was not an easy one. Don’t get me wrong, he did everything that we never had to miss anything. He was very demanding and dominant. But it taught me a lot and meanwhile I benefit a lot from it. I often hear him inside of me for example when I get cool in difficult situations. But I also know that many of the things I do freely today would have caused a lot of discussions. His life was not easy at all and as his daughter and also chief secretary for many years I got to know him from many sides. Although I did not accept all his behavior I could accept him the ways he was and did not take things personally anymore. It was him not me. When he died unexpectedly from sudden heart death I could not even say goodbye. But I was at peace with him, no score to settle.

It was 4 weeks before he died that I started working on the song below “Wish You Were Here”. I had never thought at that time that I would dedicate it to my father. Here it is:

Wish, you were here

 

Verse:

I wish that you were here,

the way you used to be.

I wish that you were here,

but you’re not here with me.

 

To hold me in your arm

and shelter me from harm.

Wanna hear your gentle voice

to calm this inner noise.

 

Chorus:

I wanna feel your presence,

your support and loving energy.

Wanna feel you are around

and walking next to me.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this state,

I wish that you were here.

 

Verse:

For now I have to face.

Have to complete this earthly race.

Sometimes I fall apart,

but I have to make a new start.

 

Now I have to be strong.

Find a way to move on.

And somewhen I will see,

that you’re always here with me.

 

Chorus

Somewhen I’ll feel your presence,

your support and loving energy.

I will feel you are around

and walking next to me.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this state,

I wish that you were here, that you were here.

 

Middle part:

You left this life, left me alone.

A feeling scary and unknown.

Surrounded by debris,

it’s bending my knees!

 

I wish that you were here,

the way you used to be.

I wish that you were here

but you’re not here with me.

 

 

Chorus

I wanna feel your presence,

your support and loving energy.

Wanna feel you are around

and walking next to me.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this

Will I reach this

Till I reach this state,

I wish that you were here.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this state,

I wish… I wish that you were here.

 

In Love and Light

Happy Mother’s Day!!!

Hope you all my Mom’s are having a lovely day! The ones who don’t: Feel my embrace 💖

I am celebrating this day together with my mom and my sisters and later with my children. A wonderful day! I have it all!

Perhaps this song is quite melancholic but it reminds of treasuring the time I have and had with my children. Mother’s Day to me felt always more like celebrating my kids than me. Because they are the reason for Mother’s Day! Read more ›

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