Allowing the Strength of Being Weak

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For today I decided to pick a card from Dennis Linn’s Gateway Oracle Cards. I love those cards since they are like nailing messages to show the way out of a maze. The card I picked is “Accepting What Is”:

Wow, that stroke a cord. For about a week before writing this post (which is two weeks ago), I have had difficulties with some past happenings surfacing. They opened up old wounds and have held me tightly in its fist of emotions. It comes down to not being able to let the past pass and to forgiving. Although I thought, years ago, that I made it. But no! It doesn’t happen consciously since I am definitely not pondering what I could think of that makes me feel bad. It gets triggered by something and shows that it had not been worked out yet. The problem with that thorn sticking so deep is that I look at the present with the eyes of a past me. That draws the past into the present and keeps me from creating a different future present. Oh, and didn’t I write a few times about the healing effect of acceptance lately? I know, and still, something so deep-rooted always catches up again and surprises me by wrapping me in a cloud which takes my orientation and dims the view.

So, yes, this card is more than timely and shows the profound effect of accepting again. Accepting what was (I cannot change it anyway), accepting what is (it inspires my creativity), but most of all accepting of who I was and who I am in this moment. Accepting, that I don’t need to be ashamed of not standing up for myself, that I don’t need to feel worthless when I could not make people listen, that I don’t need to fall into despair because I have still not made it to escape those claws. Accepting that I might not have worked on the healing, but (although thinking I did) tried to leave the past behind by turning away. Accepting, that this is my chance, now, that the feelings are so challenging and reminding me to take the bull by the horns and let myself fall deep into it – no matter how long it may take or how others react. Finally, silencing the ego and allowing myself to be “weak” by keeping this gate open for letting the poison come off eventually. It needs to be to not stumble over those hurdles on my way repeatedly to let my potential flow into all the things I want to achieve.

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I am not writing this because I feel so sorry for myself or because I want anybody to feel sorry for me. That’s of no use and would only be counterproductive. I do it because I want to encourage you not to misunderstand yourself which happens so easily. We think we found “it”. We think we got the clue. We think we know the way. Sometimes we may be right, but only when we do feel this truth. As long as we only “think” we made it, it has not happened. Yes, it is important to make a conscious decision. But it is more than just saying I decide to accept. Because what we need to decide is accepting the journey to acceptance. I wasn’t aware of it. And I don’t know how long it will take and how many places I have to travel until I can forgive those who hurt me completely eventually – or to forgive myself completely, that I kept me in that prison.

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So, what I want to say with this post is:
Be very patient with yourself. Don’t expect too much too fast from yourself. Don’t think you are so strong because then you tend to ignore the feelings that need to be felt. It needs so much more strength to let them happen that is already part of the necessary insight and deep healing. The path to healing and forgiving is so individual. It is individual for each person, and the several paths to healing in one person are individual.

There is no right or wrong.
There is only a going along and see where it takes you.
There is only acceptance of embracing yourself by taking the challenge.
There is only acceptance.

In Love and Light

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Deine Worte, liebe Erika, des Erkennens seiner eigenen Schwächen and that we should be patient with ourselves, beflügeln mich richtiggehend! Vielen Dank für deine Weitsicht und nur weiter so! Cari saluti Martina

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Grazie mille, Martina! Wir gehen mit uns meist viel härter ins Gericht als mit jedem anderen und haben dadurch auch viel grössere Schwierigkeiten uns selbst zu verzeihen. Die eigene Schwäche geschehen zu lassen, ist die Stärke, die wir eigentlich in uns freisetzen müssen. Danke dir nochmal für deinen schönen Kommentar!

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Great post and wonderful Tolle quotes. “The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I change.” ~~Carl Rogers. Thank you for the inspiration Erika 🙏

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Great quote! Yes, that is exactly the point. The big insight/change happens when we accept ourselves with everything and completely as we are. Very good quote, indeed! Thank you for sharing.

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Acknowledging and accepting our weaknesses breaks down the ego and opens the way to healing and renewal. The journey of forgiveness can be a tough one especially when the wounds are very deep. Don’t allow the past to shame you, forgive yourself and become new, forgive those who have wronged you so that you can be released from those chains of silent resentment. Look at how far you have come and continue to grow inside of you.

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Yes, I second every sentence you wrote here. As long as we try to be strong, we deny and push those things back which can only be resolved when we let them go. Thank you very much!

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I learned long ago that’s it okay to admit when something is troubling inside instead of putting up the front like all is well. Like you said, we only push those things back in that way. You are so very welcome!

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Erika, well said. A famous golfing instructor once noted, golfers tend to practice their strengths more than shoring up their weaknesses. It should be the other way around. Keith

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