Actually, I planned to share another part of God’s messages but on the weekend something important happened and I want to share this here with you because I think it could help the one or the other. 

Like many of us, I may have lost the connection to myself over the decades and due to being taught how I had to be instead of learning how to not lose me, I did not find the entrance anymore (which made me even more influenceable) and the journeys began. But those journeys were important to give me the necessary pressure, to lead me to several dead ends and therefore to my own mental limits. Although I thought I was searching within I was not aware that I was searching outside. Due to the accumulating emotional stress in my life, I realized that there is a spot within me I don’t see or, for whatever reason, had not entered yet. I was sure that breaking the blockage could give me the necessary insight to why I arrived at this point in my life and for giving me the power to lift me above it and see the road again.

Guan Yin (also Kwan Yin) is the bodhisattva of compassion and mercy. She is venerated in Mahayana Buddhism, Vajrayana Buddhism (where she is known as Avalokitesvara), and sometimes Theravada Buddhism. She is usually shown as female but sometimes shown as male. Her full name is Guanshiyin which means “Observing the Sounds (or cries) of the World.” (Wikipedia)
The meditation is meant to connect with the Kwan Yin energy in order to unveil the blocking layer(s) which keep(s) from connecting with the power of the heart. The effects are letting go, giving up excessive control, letting flow again the held back tears and feelings, emotional healing, tolerance and compassion (with yourself), unfolding the female part in you.

Although I knew about Kwan Yin and the healing effect for many months. It only seemed the time was right last weekend and I picked this meditation  from YouTube:

All that was said, I already saw and felt long before it was said in the meditation. A black layer of blindness which I falsely identified as loneliness (the lone warrior), was my own hand which covered my view from the dawning sun. Once the layer was lifted I felt the sun rising inside of me. Yet, I realized that I AM that sun with all its power, warmth, and light. The power and steadfastness I have felt in that moment of awareness were incredible. I see that I was running away all my life from myself. I tried to find it in different so many different ways, in a different way of living my life, in a different way of judging myself. Not seeing how close I have always been to the solution. I only had to turn around.

I feel like I only watched all the things I already knew through a window until the window opened up and it all merged with my whole being. I feel closer to my own feelings and I am in complete acceptance of them. I am not scared by them anymore but welcome them as part of my temporary me. It is a feeling of peacefulness and of not questioning myself. I wonder how this will affect my daily life. After the meditation, I wrote down the messages which have filled me. This has actually been the intention to wrote this post. I hope it inspires and empowers you too:

I am the sun, which dawns inside of me.
I am my new day.
I am my own light.
I am pure wisdom.
I am light energy.

I allow myself

• to be the most important part of my life.
• to be open and in awareness.
• to be honest with me.
• to let my own light shine and give no one permission to dim it.
• to let all my power vibrate and give no one permission to restrict it.
• to be who I am and give no one permission to tell me who I had to be.

If you are at a point where you feel disconnected from your core, when you are denying your own feelings or are scared to accept them then try out this meditation. Don’t be scared when you are asked to look at what you tried to ignore successfully. The reason you did it will be eliminated and the flow will fill you with your own amazing energy which you blocked for much too long. You will see that what you have yearned for has actually always been residing inside yourself. It was only a heartbeat away. Let your beautiful light fill you and shine it onto the world.

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In Love and Light