After I was done writing this post I noticed that it turned out as a sequel to last weeks post Forth or Back?
A sunny Sunday noon. My view goes out towards the mountains. My willow is in full bloom. The birds are singing and life comes back to me. There is a lot of turmoil behind me already and a lot is still in front of me. But at the moment I feel like in the eye of the hurricane. I am content, patient, full of pictures for a new future. At the moment, the heaviness of the past weeks and months is falling off. I feel light and like moving towards a door which has been already open and only waiting for me to get there.
What sounds like a poem is a development most of us go through in our lives. Probably several times! We see a change coming and in the beginning, we feel it like a threat and try to walk around it. But it doesn’t work. Somehow, it always shows up in front of us. Until we are done with the constant detours because we realize that the only way to reach past it is to walk through it. We know that decision is not the easy path we choose but it is the right path.
I already mentioned that analogy in the past: It feels like a thick fog. You might lose your orientation and feel surrounded by obstacles. You don’t know how far you have already come because you feel like getting stuck in that fog. You might get desperate, impatient, and doubtful. You might even consider walking back where you came from because this all scares you so much. But after a little while, you see that it doesn’t make sense at all. Finding the way back might be even harder and in the end, you would never forgive yourself that you backed out. The frustration grew. So you simply continue the journey step by step and hope that you are still on track.
After that perhaps last decision to stick with your route, all of a sudden, the fog clears off more and more. That path gets clearer and the confirmation that you did the right thing gives you that power to walk on more determined than before. You feel a new strength and even passion rising up inside of you. Another breakthrough experience.
Doubts and contemplation are part of our journeys. They are important in order to know if you are still sure about the plan. Going back can be an option. In sitting down and reviewing it all you will find out what the journey by then taught you. Either to continue the journey or the distance makes you find something new about the place you came from. Then it is like a time-out you needed to see the whole picture again.
The eye of the hurricane makes you see that the sky is still blue and the sun is still shining. It doesn’t matter how many storms there may come because as soon as they appear they are already meant to pass! We only need some awareness to see what important hints and tools the storm blows towards us. And sometimes such a storm is necessary to clear the path… and the fog!
In Love and Light