Day 2 – #Loveuary ❤ My Love For My Parents

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My dear blog sister, Ritu, of But I Smile Anyway has a beautiful challenge going through this Valentine month. Love is my favorite subject and how could I resist to participate as much as possible. If you want to check it out you find more information here!

For today’s prompt, I went a little emotional. The relationship with my father was not an easy one. Don’t get me wrong, he did everything that we never had to miss anything. He was very demanding and dominant. But it taught me a lot and meanwhile I benefit a lot from it. I often hear him inside of me for example when I get cool in difficult situations. But I also know that many of the things I do freely today would have caused a lot of discussions. His life was not easy at all and as his daughter and also chief secretary for many years I got to know him from many sides. Although I did not accept all his behavior I could accept him the ways he was and did not take things personally anymore. It was him not me. When he died unexpectedly from sudden heart death I could not even say goodbye. But I was at peace with him, no score to settle.

It was 4 weeks before he died that I started working on the song below “Wish You Were Here”. I had never thought at that time that I would dedicate it to my father. Here it is:

Wish, you were here

 

Verse:

I wish that you were here,

the way you used to be.

I wish that you were here,

but you’re not here with me.

 

To hold me in your arm

and shelter me from harm.

Wanna hear your gentle voice

to calm this inner noise.

 

Chorus:

I wanna feel your presence,

your support and loving energy.

Wanna feel you are around

and walking next to me.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this state,

I wish that you were here.

 

Verse:

For now I have to face.

Have to complete this earthly race.

Sometimes I fall apart,

but I have to make a new start.

 

Now I have to be strong.

Find a way to move on.

And somewhen I will see,

that you’re always here with me.

 

Chorus

Somewhen I’ll feel your presence,

your support and loving energy.

I will feel you are around

and walking next to me.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this state,

I wish that you were here, that you were here.

 

Middle part:

You left this life, left me alone.

A feeling scary and unknown.

Surrounded by debris,

it’s bending my knees!

 

I wish that you were here,

the way you used to be.

I wish that you were here

but you’re not here with me.

 

 

Chorus

I wanna feel your presence,

your support and loving energy.

Wanna feel you are around

and walking next to me.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this

Will I reach this

Till I reach this state,

I wish that you were here.

 

That you live on in my heart,

one day I will see clear.

But till I reach this state,

I wish… I wish that you were here.

 

In Love and Light

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If I read this I could not keep the tears by myself. I am happy about your words and this beautiful song. Really it was sometimes not easy but I am thankful and proud for living 45 years with this man and thankful for his great love

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Nice post and song, Erika! 💖 I can kind of relate. I’m bad, I didn’t do the challenge yesterday. 😑 I’m going to try to participate more often but probably not everyday. I love my mom but I don’t know if I could write about my father or stepdad yet. They are hard men to deal with. I don’t know why my dad didn’t really want me in his life when I was a kid. He still acts weird. My stepdad reads my blog. Maybe one of these days I can get the courage to talk more about it later.

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I totally get you, Lisa! First I thought I leave that one out just because I did not have much time anyway and I rather waited for the more romantic prompts to come but then this song came to my mind.
I understand that it is not easy to write about something private concerning a close person who read your posts. I think when I was ready to write I’m Free I let go of that fear and said to myself: So what!! As you know I used many examples in that book and some of them are concerning close people… I did it anyway! It needed courage up to the point where I said: This is MY life and it is MY book! No one has to judge my feelings or tell me if they are right or wrong! My feelings are a result how I experienced certain situations and it I am not in charge to explain myself for that!

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That would be a great idea! You know, I never talked to my father because I knew it would not make sense. There simply came that moment when I realized that it was him fighting his demons but not me! That way I even felt compassion and a completely new relationship formed naturally!

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Wow! That’s a perfect way of looking at it, Erika. I’ve actually seen a quote like that. Something like be nice because everyone is fighting their own battle. Maybe one of these days it will come to me on what to write.

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What a beautiful song Erika. For some reason it also made me feel very nostalgic for my own parents as well. I love your voice, you’re so very talented. Hugs ❤️

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