Yesterday I posted about my struggles with the modern technology: My son is running out of money in Totnes (England) because the money transaction did not work out – hopefully it is finally fixed. And then my outlook started to refuse its cooperation. First of all thank you all for your so lovely and compassionate encouragements. I felt helpless with this stuff and I got angry, too. You are amazing friends and I hug each one of you for your sweet comments.
I am a profound positive person. I am amazed how much I could change my perspective within the past 5 – 6 years. It is not only something I have to talk myself into, it really is a basic condition on which I build up my life. I feel deep whatever I feel. I can be stubborn, angry, mad (and when I get mad I am boiling). But I am also highly enthusiastic, standing in awe with glowing eyes, crying because I am overwhelmed of love and happiness by wonderful things I witness or am blessed to experience myself. I am romantic and passionate. I can cry hard and laugh out loud. As I said, I simply feel deep! And I love it! Where was I??? Got lost in my feelings… 😃 Ok, back to the topic!
I am positive as part of my personality. I barely take anything personal or feel offended, I am very tolerant and enjoy the variety of personalities, histories, ways of life, dealing with life of all the people I encounter. There are things that throw me off track, but only for a short period. I am not refusing negative feelings but try to figure out what they want to tell me and I soon find the view to something above it. That’s wonderful. I love the depth because I love the rise after. As I said: Feeling deep! So I can basically deal with what life throws towards my feet and with people… BUT… BUT… BUT
I am getting crazy with technology. This stuff is supposed to work in order to support my work. And when all of a sudden my computer says: NO WAY! I could take it and throw it out of the window. I wouldn’t even care if it is open (haha, that makes me laugh!). This technical stuff is something I don’t get and I hate to get stuck because of that! Of course there is no way to solve a problem with only throwing it out of the window… lol. But after a nervous breakdown I take a deep breath and hope that some of the educated peeps might help me. My daughter’s boyfriend is a genius. He logged into my laptop from outside and he worked on it for more than an hour. He is an angel. He made my outlook work again… Unfortunately the problem occurred again when I wanted to open it today… Anyway, I still have access over my phone if necessary, I am looking forward going to the studio today and working on my next song, the weather is beautiful, we are all well… SO WHAT!
I just ask you to remain patient with me for not reading all of your posts until the email problem is finally solved!
I took some more photos from my garden. I wanted to wait until more flowers and most of all my roses are standing in blossom. But since many of my friends liked that little excerpt I show you a little more.
Two of my fairies
In Love and Light!