In Loving Memory

On March 16 1990 one of the closest persons to me passed away . my beloved grandfather. I just noticed that this is already 25 years ago. He died with only 62 years. I was his treasure and next to my mom his most important person in life. And so he was to me. No person ever dedicated himself ever that much to me. At least to me it felt like that. He was funny, understanding, experienced… It was a Monday and I was 19 when he called. I was about to rush to my Volleyball training. In not knowing that it might be the last time I did not talk to him on the phone since I was in a stupid hurry. Four days later he died. I am sure he knew it. It took me many years until I was able to forgive myself for that.

I learned a lot within the past 25 years as you can see from my blog. My whole attitude towards life and death changed dramatically. Death to me is not the end of life – it is part of it. Death is continuing eternity.

Juli 1978

The following song I produced last year is actually dedicated to my father who passed away 2 1/2 years ago. But in memory to my grandfather I play it for him today. Also I dedicate my song to all of you who are grieving for a loved one or simply miss them:

Wish you were here

Still think of you and will always do…

Uropapa 2August 1983

In Love and Light!

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Thank you, Belinda. I am singing all my life. Actually it is only one way to express myself next to writing. Meanwhile I can combine my writing, with my music and my singing. That’s such a gift!

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Lovely post Emma… it’s so very touching!
My grandfather’s death was the beginning of my OCD and depression and anxiety issues at the age of 9.
I still miss him so much… sometimes getting over is not easy at all. But now I’m far better than I was 4 years before. I’ve accepted it and now I have made my peace with it πŸ™‚
You are so strong Erika! You inspire me so much! ❀
Thanks for sharing the song and the pictures Erika! They both are beautiful, just like you ❀

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I feel very humbled about your words. Your thoughts are touching me a lot. Sometimes simply need time in order to work ourselves through it. It is a journey – a big journey – to accept such things that cannot be changed anymore. But they carry their own blessing inside. Because what we love about the person that passed lives on in our hearts. It is like a seed that starts blooming. That way the person lives on within us and throuhg us. This connection can not be destroyed.

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Thanks Erika! You’re words have such a deep impact effect on me that after exchanging comments with you, I feel like I’m recharged with positivity πŸ™‚

PS: I’m sorry that in my last comment I referred to you as Emma. Actually I was reading and commenting on Emma’s blog just before your’s so by mistake I called you also Emma! Sorry dear πŸ™‚

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Aww, you are so lovely, Amanda! I am so glad we are connected! To be honest I had to stop working on the song for a while because I wanted it too perfect and it lost its character. But also that was a part of the healing process. Life’s paths to make us learn are truly special and unique πŸ˜‰

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Das ist er – laufend. Wenn ich am meisten verzweifelt war, habe ich ihn auch am meisten gespΓΌrt. Mittlerweile ist das fΓΌr mich… normal… haha. SchΓΆn, gell!


It’s such a hard concept to accept. There seems to be a finality in a loved ones passing. I suppose it comes down to hope or faith. I’m sure that your grandfather was a wonderful man, with whom you have many special memories.

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Oh, I do, Rob! When I started feeling my grandfather after his dead and I knew it was him then I started to make peace with the situation and most of all with me. Regardless of knowing about the afterlife the difficult thing to accept is, that it is not anymore as it used to be – and that needs time.

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When we lose a loved one here on earth, we gain an angel in heaven that watches over us. May you take comfort in knowing that you have an angel to watch over you now. I extend my most sincere condolences to you. –

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This is lovely. It is so long ago and he still is part of my life. He will always be. Whether being in a body or not doesn’t change anything. I see clear that we will always be connected through our hearts. Thank you for your lovely comment, Mihran.


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